Nihilophobia

'While writing the poem Nihilophobia I got the image of Koanashi again and again, the 'No Face' that appears to Chihiro in Spirited Away. Today I felt this something that is not there, fascinating, appealing and frightening at the same time. Have you ever felt it?'No-Face (カオナシ kaonashi, lit. "faceless") is a spirit in the Japanese animated film Spirited Away. He is shown to be capable of reacting to emotions and ingesting other individuals in order to gain their personality and physical traits.

Nihilophobia 

Big long figures of charcoal come to life
there is weight about them like body-weight
they tend to be straight but they are not
there must be old bones in their shadiness
they must moan when no one looks at them
they suggest to have mouths without faces
to live without traces, apart from a snail trail
of smoke in the brain that just
never really appears
before it never really faints

When I fear myself and all kinds of self’s they slip into the vowels
If they have a love for something
it is to stretch the vowels
and stare into the space of
Ooooo’s and Aaaaa’s

 Those figures of charcoal these days
put quite a lot of weight
in not really being there
besides the cold wet washing
and capture me.